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Name: Chris AKA Toper da Goper
Location: China, Afghanistan
Birthday: 12/25/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: Bawls...............Basketball.
...............girls........................
................BEING BORED
Expertise: BEING BORED.......
FUcking around
with other people..................
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Government
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  ilyk2m0v3it---------ho0essd1ss
Member Since:
4/25/2004
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| hmmm...Last post, Take time to really say what I feel, and then its back to the real Chris,hmm, I've honestly never felt this way about someone, I opened myself up to her, and I was willing to giv it all up for her. She was the onlee thing on my mind, night and day, whether I was awake or asleep, its hard to say but I've never gotten over the feeling, i dont think i can, she taught me so many things about myself, she taught me how to truly care for someone, I kno it, I lost it, I had a chance, I missed one of the greatest opportunities life has to offer. I've waited too long, I should've juss told her, even if we don't end up together, I hope we can still be friends, and all the things that I did with her and For her, I dont regret them, she honestly left an impact on my life, she left a mark in my heart, the way i felt for her is one of those things that stays with u for the rest of ur life, no matter wat, and everytime somone brings her name up, or says things that make me think about her, it lights up the feeling that i had...have for her... A constant reminder of her. I thought she was the one, I still do think that there is a possible chance. It takes a minute to like someone, it takes a day to love that person, but its impossible to forget something that you trully love or once loved with all your heart. Gotta stay one step ahead of the past, learn from my life lessons, and stay tru to my feelings, no matter wat happens, its a sure thing that i'll still hold the same feelings for her deep inside my heart and mind. I still see her, I can't forget her smile, I can't forget her....... | | |
| Well today I went to the marketplace and mall with michelle and nick after we went to the Providence workshop thingy. And then i went to church to see christine and had a talk with her, and then i went to the marketplace again with leo fillipe and ChrisTine...
hmm...today is weird... I talked to a complete stranger about God for 40 minutes...it was weird, he reeli did help me...I feel closer to God...I thank God for today... Edging
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| yesterday, went out to the marketplace and mall and watched Taxi with, Regan, ChrisTINE, darlene, ramon,jillian,nick,levy,fillipe and Leo.and now im confused even mor...So many things r happening all at once!!!it sucks ass...LOL, I dont kno wat to do anymor,i dont wanna stop trying, and i dont wanna forget about her, and i certainly dont want my feelings to go unheard, (O-M-G bitch inside joke)and the thing is that i kno she feels the same way as i do and she knows it too but she's SCARED??? i guess.
People r telling me to forget it but i can't wen i think about it over and over again. | | |
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hmmm...today went and got a [physical whoohooo they poked aneedle through my vein but the missed the vein so they ahd to do it again and then i went to watch the volleyball game and watched flower Regan kickass...LOL, and then i ate out with my grandpa and wen i got home my kuya slapped my arm and my arm got even mor sore...or sorer???lol okok well later
God i miss her, i miss spending my time talking to her late at night, I need to see her again, its been so long since I've held her in my arms, I need to kno if she still has that feeling inside...If only she wasn't afraid of wat might happen, if she was willing to risk it all lyk me...Shoot, all i need is 5 minutes with her, a chance to tell her how i reeli felt, I swear thats all i need, I cross my heart that i would tell her how i felt. If only she knew that she was all im thinking about as soon as i wake up, and as soon as i close my eyes...she's always in my dreams. God i need her, Its just that she fucks up so much.
I hate it wen we hav a moment, and then we act lyk nothing happened...when we should be talking about it, we excuse it lyk its nothing...
God I miss seeing that smile on her face... | | |
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